sex-a-me-street

Chapter 6 - Learning to Grow

2005-01-04T18:02:00.000+08:00

I am learning.

Learning to let go...

For the past few months, I had been disappointed with many things...

But from the disappointment, I am learning to let go.

Certain expectations are better left and kept for myself. To expect people to think and feel in a way I deem 'proper' or 'correct' is impossible.

For the coming new year, I will set certain guidelines for myself.

1) If things doesn't happen, do not feel guilty and think it is becos I did not do enough
2) If nobody cares, I also will not care
3) I can only do this much, if people do not appreciate, so be it
4) People can say whatever they want, I cannot change anything. In this case, I should be more selfish and be fairer to myself
5) If I am not happy, I should not care about how others feel
6) I should not initiate, ask or start anything. Cos people will only feel obliged to do it and not becos they want to do it

A quote from a friend

"Just plan and do what you want. If people appreciate it, they will turn up no
matter what. If people dun appreciate it, they will have all reasons to stay
away"

2005 shall be a year I learn to grow...

Yes, I will...

Chapter 5 - Sadness once more

2004-11-24T17:42:00.000+08:00

The previous week or 2 had been tough.

I feel very tired...

Tired of many things, things that I like, things that I treasured...

Somehow, things are not the same anymore. It is breaking apart, it is drifting further. Sometimes, I wonder if some things I did were worth it at all.

Maybe it is time to look for a new direction, a new beginning, a new hope.

Maybe I should start to take things a little less pessimistically and more optimistically. It will be difficult. Life is difficult but somehow, I know things will be different now.

I should take things easy...

Friends...

Sigh...

Chapter 4 - The time is ripe

2004-07-22T10:23:00.000+08:00

Recent events is probably a signal for me to make a firm decision. I've been deliberating for some time, for reasons both internal and external. It's an emotional struggle every single day.

Perhaps it is the best for both parties. Perhaps I've been too soft. Now is probably the time to decide and do something I truly enjoy.

I need a sign... a sign to tell me the decision I'm going to make is correct. But I have reservations... Am I too haste?

Many have gone thru this route and survived, I think I can do it also.

Probably the thing I needed most now is support, and someone to tell me I'm right in making the decision... but I fear the repercussion...

Really...

Sigh...

2004-06-07T08:03:00.000+08:00

"The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. The optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"

Chapter 3 - Nothing to hide

2004-06-03T09:19:00.000+08:00

Being friends means that there should be nothing to hide from each other. Friends accept the truth and should not judge you.

Speak freely but accept that there can be differences. Nobody is perfect and we should not expect our friends to be perfect cos we ourselves are not perfect.

There might be disappointments or even doubts but in a true friendship, it's about going through such things together. You cannot expect your friends to always do what you want.

There are times when you feel you want to do some sacrifices to maintain it but... sigh... it is not so easy like 1 + 1 = 2. Friendship does not work in such a way. It is irrational and without logic. When in doubt, I always follow my heart... What about you?

人之出,性本善
~【三字经】

Friendship is a delicate thing, if you lose it, it might just leave you, forever...

I feel so lost now...

Chapter 2 - Sharing Common Interest

2004-05-31T01:47:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wonder what brings people together? Being friends? Bonding as a group?

Is it because we share common ideas and interests, so we gel? Or could it be that because we are as different as each can be, thus we compliment and challenge each other to greater heights?

Encouragement and support for each other when the chips are down. That's what friends are for.

So friend, my dear friend, whatever the weariness in life! Continue to smile! You know there's someone behind you.

我们是最好最好的朋友,
在微笑中一起生活.....!
~ 巫启贤

2004-05-29T09:47:00.000+08:00

"You will never find peace of mind until you listen to your heart"

Chapter 1 - The Beginnings

2004-05-28T10:07:00.000+08:00

Contrary to this blog's title, this blog is nothing raunchy at all. Nothing suggestive nor titillating. Nothing sexual nor kinky. Not that you are interested in them anyway. Right?

This blog is just an avenue to pen my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions. I saw my friend's blog and so I thought perhaps I can give it a try too. Seems interesting.

So why then did I pick this title you ask me. Well, it's just a common joke among my group of friends, an innocent intention drafted long, long ago. So very long ago.

The idea was spontaneous. The motive was simple. To record down the tiniest yet significant details we all shared together, like the tiny black book taking note of our journey in life, as friends, as pals, as soulmates.

I am just fulfilling a dream, a promise, a vision. I just hope I am not too late.

A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.

So today, it shall be "The Beginnings". And without a doubt, sex-a-me-street does not belong to me alone but to all of you there, reading...